Being a Mom

I was never the little girl that said I wanted to be a mommy when I grew up. In fact, I used to say I never wanted kids. I hated babysitting and usually called my parents crying saying I wanted to come home. Even after Jason and I got married, there were times that I thought I would be perfectly content with it being just the 2 of us and our dogs. I loved how we could come and go as we please and do whatever, whenever we wanted. I finally got bit by the baby bug after several of my friends started their families. However, even when I was pregnant, I would sometimes panic at the thought of how our comfortable little life was about to be turned upside down.

And then came Charlotte Sue. I recently received an email from my mom that truly captured how I feel right now. As you know, our parents live in Atlanta so I email them pictures of Charlotte on almost a daily basis. My mom recently wrote this: "All pictures are great of Charlotte. She is so cute. But I have to say, you look so good in all pictures of you-motherhood must agree with you." Motherhood so agrees with me! I developed patience that I never knew I had. I look at everyday things in a new way because they amaze her. I love Jason in a completely different way. 


I thank god on a daily basis for her. She has brought me so much love and joy and I thank Him daily for that. 


I go back to work 2 weeks from tomorrow and will no longer get to spend my days with my daughter (yes, I am bawling as I write this). I know Charlotte will be well taken care of but I will miss her more than I can imagine. I will just treasure that time that I get to spend with her that much more.


Thank you Charlotte for allowing me to be your mommy. I hope I live up to your expectations as you have already far exceeded mine.